I get a phone call this morning from IRIS, who manage my support services, and it goes like this:
IRIS: So… Looking through your latest report, it says here your support worker is your sister?
Me: Yes, is that a problem?
IRIS: Well, the Ministry have said that family members living in your home can’t be your support staff.
Me: But when I signed up for Individualised Funding, you said that it would be fine..?
IRIS: Not anymore. We can provide you with a support person until you find another one, but right now she can no longer work for you.
So what am I supposed to do, IRIS? Not get dressed in the morning? Go through the rigmarole of hunting down, interviewing, selecting and training another support person? Cancel an arrangement that’s working so well for me at the moment? Therein lies my biggest frustration, really – my support systems have never been as good as they are right now, and the Ministry want to take that away? I’m sorry, but fuck that.
I checked it out with my sister, and she tells me she’s living at her boyfriend’s for now. So I rang IRIS back to tell them the good news. My case manager tells me she’ll ask her boss if they will “accept this” and get back to me, but would I like them to send one of their staff over anyway?
No, IRIS, I wouldn’t.
This isn’t any old job. This is my life: my wellbeing, my independence, my dignity. Right now, my sister is doing an exceptional job, and she will continue to do so. Why on earth are they so hell-bent on removing what works so well?
More than anything, why do I get this uneasy feeling that I’m “in trouble”? I hate it how, as disabled people, we’re locked into these systems whereby you constantly feel like you’re in danger of breaking the rules, not that anyone really knows what the rules are. It’s the same thing if you’re on an invalids benefit, where you’re never really sure how much you can work in fear of having your benefit cut, so you don’t do anything. All these systems, rules, and other fucking people managing your life keep us in shackles, for the benefit of the bureaucrats who spend taxpayer money on fucking porn movies.
Frankly, I’m over it.
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